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Words to inspire:

My lil girl reminded me that yesterday was the anniversary of a day last year that I will never forget. The day some more things in my life changed. The day that I drove to work after being told everything is safe in my job role to then hear an urgent message from my manager asking me to call her. When I called her I was told there’s been a sudden change which will affect me greatly. I was at risk of redundancy. While my manager was on the line, my other phone rang. It was a call from lil lady’s primary school telling me they have no option but to exclude her because of an incident that occurred. I looked at both phones and I just cried down the line at both of them. We had not long buried our angel and all of this was just too much for my ears. I was so tired of the misery.
I remember driving back down the motorway to get to my lil lady’s school crying out to God “why???” Like didn’t He think I’ve reached my peak of tragedies?
The next day which will be one year today, I wrote a song called “There’s a reason for it all.” That song came from a deep place. I was also reminded today that I haven’t done anything with that song yet but there’s a reason for that too.
One year on, lil lady was excluded but only for an afternoon. She will never do anything like that again because she hated the fact that she couldn’t get full attendance for that term. That incident actually helped with the fight to get our county to give us the support and the particular document we felt we needed. When they read about that, they must have thought “Yeah ok.” Lol. It served its purpose.
I did take redundancy. I was able to be at home during some really difficult months and be around so MrJK could deal with all the murder trial stuff. I took my two to NY to give them a distraction and we had lots of fun.
I’m now in a job that might not pay as well but it is strategic move as it will draw me closer to the vision I have. I work 2 minutes away from lil lady’s school and 4 minutes away from lil man’s school. If anything happens I can get there in a flash.
The only thing I miss about the old job is the friends I made and the salary but we have never lacked any good thing since I departed. Actually we have been blessed miraculously over and over again.
Lots of things have happened in my life and I won’t say they are all to be celebrated but they have helped shape me. I have also met some incredible friends who are now family through my children’s diagnosis and other things in my journey.
There will always be mysteries that we won’t get the answer to in this life but there are things we will understand in the future.
There’s a reason for it all.

Peace and love

MrsJK